A Digital Trip

Episode III •
Internal Struggle

The ‘16 decision to make a change in my life toward financial freedom was externalized to-the-masses, and started with a serious amount of dedicated decisions to begin making internal sacrifices. It started with minimizing my actual expenses, spending more time working on projects and less-time going out of it wasn’t to a meeting or an event.

At first, you don’t really notice anything, but by continuously and repetitiously altering your actions and behaviors, you begin to open-up an actual possibility for discipline to mold your time and energy into shape, just like a muscle, it’s consistent choices that show progress.

The expenditures began by cutting-out distractions, anything that *really* wasn’t going to help me get ahead. This is where I abused the internet for most of my entertainment and socializing-while-working.

Next, I started to try and change the way that I viewed any sort of transition into difficulty with sheer excitement, even when it was something I didn’t want to do. I’d routinely do things that made me intentionally uncomfortable, depriving myself of instant gratifications. Each tiny act in the right direction had to be self-rewarded and cheered for.

Obsessive desire fueled me to continue toward my work and often meant less-time to party anyways, so instead, I’d save the money that I normally would’ve blew on a weekend, and started investing small amounts into the stock market and other various avenues of income just to keep my brain actively learning and absorbing new ways to grow.

Eventually, I trained myself to live in a happy-medium between my income and spendings, where even the bright-lights of social didn’t make me feel the need to change from t-shirts or pajamas. This strengthened my core belief system in my own ability to feel good about the tiny things that no one sees.

I’d spend much-less time consuming main-stream media, television or entertainment channels and way more time self-educating myself or learning from others on social. I’d get so hyped about my savings beginning to sprout by itself that my confidence started to come back.

Song paired with video but no included:
YABOII: Take Me To Church

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